Clarity

There are certain things in the world that give you a few moments of clarity. Things that put life into perspective for you and make you remember how lucky you are. One of those things for me is spending time with my best friend Lindsey. Just talking to her makes me feel better. She always knows how to make me feel better and is always very blunt when I need an opinion or advice. I love that about her! We were talking tonight about how we can go for a week or even longer without talking and yet we still remain close friends. And that's how its supposed to be. But we both know, even if we haven't talked for a while, that we are only a phone call or text away and we'll be there for each other no matter what. I am extremely thankful to have someone like her in my life and I'm grateful that she can give me some clarity in my hectic moments of life. :)

Moments...

Do you ever have moments where you almost hyper-ventilate because your thinking about the future, all of the responsibilities you have, and everything your supposed to do with your life...well I had one a little bit ago. Actually I had a major meltdown about some of those things a couple of days ago, I avoided that this time but it still stresses me out sometimes.

I'm trying to sort out my student loans (which just thinking about makes me cringe). I'm also in the process of car shopping. Which, by the way, I can't get a car loan until I get my student loans figured out...it's a frustrating circle.

Anyway, I'm realizing those moments are probably going to become more frequent now in the real world. Because now I don't have an excuse, I can't say well I'm still in school so I don't have to worry about that stuff yet. But I guess I knew I would be dealing with this stuff so it shouldn't be a surprise, but it still isn't fun.

Ah....the real world has begun to sink in.

I finally did it

Well, again I've neglected my blog for too long...so long that my best friend told me I had to get on here. lol But I've been gone for a great reason, I'll give you one guess...

That's right, I'm finally a college graduate!!

I never thought this day would actually come, yet here it is. I'm sitting with about 450 fellow graduates listening to someone drone on about something none of us are listening to because all we want to do is walk across that stage, take a few pictures and then get the heck outta there!

It's an amazing feeling to know that I am finally done with school unless I choose to go back (which I probably will). However, it's also a scary feeling that now I actually have to face life as a true adult. Life working full-time, no more loafing around at school wasting time. It's all business form here on out. That's scary as hell to me!

But I also realize, this is what I've been preparing for. This is why I went out an found a more suitable job that would be full-time after graduation. This is why I've been becoming more responsible with money and life in general. This is what the last 16 years of school has been preparing me for...whether that 16 years actually got the job done or not is now the question. But I realize that I can't stay in school, training for the real world and life, forever. That's not how it works. At some point I'm going to have to dip my toes in the water and test it out. Then I'll just have to take a few steps back, get a running start and take a flying leap into that ocean called life.

But in the mean time, I'm going to enjoy simply testing the waters and just seeing where things lead from there. I like where I am right now. I enjoy my job for now, I like where I'm living, and I have some of the greatest friends I could ever ask for, new and old.

So now begins a new adventure...one I'm totally new to. I've never not been in school, so we'll see how this real world stuff goes and just enjoy the ride.